Eternal Return CCXX {Overcompensating} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXX {Overcompensating}

Amor Fati LXXXVI (Descent} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXXVI (Descent}

Amor Fati LXXXV {Self-Justifying Narratives} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXXV {Self-Justifying Narratives}

Eternal Return CCXIX {Gilded Age} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXIX {Gilded Age}

Eternal Return CCXVIII {The Illusion of Respectability} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXVIII {The Illusion of Respectability}

Eternal Return CCXVII {Test the Wind} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXVII {Test the Wind}

Amor Fati LXXXIV {The Cult of Comfort} (acrylic and mixed media on card stock)

Amor Fati LXXXIV {The Cult of Comfort}

Amor Fati LXXXIII {Leftist Infighting or What Happened to Solidarity?} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXXIII {Leftist Infighting or What Happened to Solidarity?}

Amor Fati LXXXII {Run from your Problems} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXXII {Run from your Problems}

Amor Fati LXXXI {The Scream in your Chest} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXXI {The Scream in your Chest}

Amor Fati LXXX {Rite of Passage} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXX {Rite of Passage}

Eternal Return CCXV {Bartleby, the Scrivener} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXV {Bartleby, the Scrivener}

Amor Fati LXXIX {The Labor Theory of Value} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXIX {The Labor Theory of Value}

Eternal Return CCXIV {Condemned to be Free} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXIV {Condemned to be Free}

Amor Fati LXXVIII {Bergson's Conception of Time} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Eternal Return CCXII {Oh, We Disquieted Ones} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXII {Oh, We Disquieted Ones}

Amor Fati LXXVII {Pataphysics} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXVII {Pataphysics}

Amor Fati LXXVI {Quaker Theology} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXVI {Quaker Theology}

Eternal Return CCXI {Die at the Right Time} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCXI {Die at the Right Time}

Amor Fati LXXV {The Myth of the Individual} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXV {The Myth of the Individual}

Eternal Return CCX {Process and Reality} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCX {Process and Reality}

Eternal Return CCIX {How we became Interesting to Ourselves} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCIX {How we became Interesting to Ourselves}

Eternal Return CCVIII {Nothing to Lose but...} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCVIII {Nothing to Lose but...}

Eternal Return CCVII {Capitalist Realism} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCVII {Capitalist Realism}

Eternal Return CCVI {Gather ye rosebuds while ye may} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCVI {Gather ye rosebuds while ye may}

Eternal Return CCV {Neo-liberal Imperialism} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCV {Neo-liberal Imperialism}

Amor Fati LXXIV {Post-Modern Heraldry} (acrylic and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXIV {Post-Modern Heraldry}

Eternal Return CCVI {Brought to you Today by...} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCVI {Brought to you Today by...}

Eternal Return CCV {Henry Miller's Escape} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCV {Henry Miller's Escape}

Eternal Return CCIV {Self-Care} (Watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCIV {Self-Care}

Eternal Return CCIII {The Urge to Punish} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock

Eternal Return CCIII {The Urge to Punish}

Where are the decadent poets who curse at the stars? (Journal Post)

[From November 8, 2008]

I need a program, both for my life and for my philosophy. I feel as though I am getting caught in a certain mediocrity in both areas. I know, in part, why this is, at least for philosophy. There are two factors: 1. I have spent so much time working on my dissertation proposal that most of my philosophical efforts have been in the area of Nietzsche’s epistemology and it is difficult to see how I might have time in the next few years to pursue my other interests. 2. My coursework is such that I am spread so thin that I cannot focus on any single text or problem. I feel all over the place, like I can’t concentrate. Even as I sit here my mind wanders to and fro without a mooring. Next semester after I defend my proposal I intend to spend half of my productive day working on my dissertation, but I also plan to spend the other half of my productive day reading outside my area, outside Nietzsche in both Continental and analytic philosophy, thinking about problems that interest me and expanding my knowledge beyond the narrow realm of my Nietzsche specialty.

Me by the Duero River in Peñafiel, Spain

In my broader life, I feel trapped. The women I've been meeting for dates bore me and try to get me to fall in love with them, and the people who I have considered my friends I find insipid, dull, weak, and completely caught up in norms and values that I want no part in. Why is and why has it always been so hard for me to find, make, and keep friends? I find myself despising people. I only seem to like people I date until I can fuck them, and then when they demand too much of my time, I completely lose interest. Part of me just wants to completely lose myself in my studies, discovering everything there is to know about art, culture, and philosophy and just forget about developing relationships with people whom I know I will either let down or they will let me down. I’m not afraid of betrayal. Rather, I am just afraid of not being interested or interesting and of being disgusted or bored to tears. Where are the irreverent, angry, non-conforming decadents who want to compete with one another and build each other up, create new ways of thinking, don't give a fuck about prudish bourgeois mores, write poetry, and who end every evening with by cursing at the stars or by taking someone home. Why is everyone in search of love? Where is the search for an unconventional, non-conforming greatness of character? I'm still looking.

Eternal Return CCII {Larval Becoming} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCII {Larval Becoming}

Eternal Return CCI {Plato's City of Pigs} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CCI {Plato's City of Pigs}

Eternal Return CC {Zero Fucks To Give} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CC {Zero Fucks To Give}

Eternal Return CXCIX {Eudaimonia} (mixed media and watercolor on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCIX {Eudaimonia}

Eternal Return CXCVIII {Holy Mountain} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCVIII {Holy Mountain}

Amor Fati LXXIII {Chicago Memories} (digital prints, acrylic, and mixed media on cardboard)

Amor Fati LXXIII {Chicago Memories}

Eternal Return CXCVII {The Three Metamorphoses of the Spirit} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCVII {The Three Metamorphoses of the Spirit}

Eternal Return CXCVI {Misunderstanding Catcher in the Rye} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCVI {Misunderstanding Catcher in the Rye}

Eternal Return CXCV {Our Weimar Republic} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCV {Our Weimar Republic}

Eternal Return CXCIV {My Anaïs} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCIV {My Anaïs}

[NSFW] Eternal Return CXCIII {Quiet Days in Clichy} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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Eternal Return CXCII {Who is the Working Class?} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CXCII {Who is the Working Class?}

[NSFW] Eternal Return CXCI {My June} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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[NSFW] Eternal Return CXC {Pious because the Gods Love it} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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Eternal Return CLXXXVIII {Symposium on Eros} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXXVIII {Symposium on Eros}

[NSFW] Eternal Return CLXXXVII {Academic Skepticism} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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Giving Style to One's Character (Journal Post)

[From March 10, 2008]

“To ‘give style’ to one’s character—a great and rare art! It is practiced by those who survey all the strengths and weaknesses of their nature and then fit them into an artistic plan until every one of them appears as art and reason and even weaknesses delight the eye” (GS 290). One is always being made; the question is how one will participate in that, how one will make oneself. Qualities are constantly being integrated and disposed of, the past reappropriated and reinterpreted. One is nothing more or other than the sum of one’s affects; every event that has ever occurred to one (and therefore every event) shapes who one is as an individual. However, not every event will affect one with the same weight or importance, and this is where one can engage in the art of creating oneself, of giving style to one’s character.

Eternal Return CIV {There is no such thing as Sin} 

[NSFW] Eternal Return CLXXXVI {Bildungsroman} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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[NSFW] Eternal Return CLXXXV {The Impossibility of Deviance} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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[NSFW] Eternal Return CLXXXIV {Triple Standards}

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[NSFW] Eternal Return CLXXXIII {Kemalism} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

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Eternal Return CLXXXII {Obsession} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXXII {Obsession}

Eternal Return CLXXXI {The Logic of Sensation} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXXI {The Logic of Sensation}

Eternal Return CLXXX {The Paradox of Tolerance} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXX {The Paradox of Tolerance}

Eternal Return CLXXIX {Metaphysical Systems} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXIX {Metaphysical Systems}

Eternal Return CLXXVIII {The Highest Values Devalue Themselves} (watercolor and mixed media on card stock)

Eternal Return CLXXVIII {The Highest Values Devalue Themselves}